When I took my life back from an abusive relationship two years ago, the first thing I did was pack up everything in my apartment that belonged to him and got it out of my house. I did some major spring cleaning. If I couldn't use it, wear it, or make it work for me, it didn't belong in my home.
The next thing I did was get on my knees and ask God to forgive me for being so imperfect and untrusting of Him. I determined to put God in the place of the man that was no longer there. I promised Him that I would never put another man before Him again.
I have not regretted that. God has provided for me in ways that cannot be explained otherwise. He has always been ON TIME. He has always provided companionship. He has lead me into doing RIGHT things RIGHT ways. He has allowed me to stand beside Him and FOR Him. He has allowed me to view my relationship with Him intimately and respectfully. There is NOTHING the Lord has not done for me that a man could provide.
A lot of single women out there love to say things like, "There is nothing a man can do for me that I can't do for myself." I have found that that is just simply not true. By myself, I have already proven what a failure I am. It wasn't until I let GOD do it for me, until I started depending completely on HIM, that I was able to see the provision I needed as a woman.
I would give anything to be able to go back and start my womanhood over knowing what I know now. I can't. And, I have to believe there is a reason for that. God meant for me to go through all I have gone through so I can look at someone else who is where I was and be able to say, "I know. I understand. But, there IS a better way!"